How does one decide what they should do? I don't mean this for the small things like "what I should eat for dinner." But, for the big things like "what job do I want to pursue."
Part of me really hates having options, unless they are not discernibly different to an outsider. Furthermore, after my fiasco of an adventure in South Korea I am hesitant to accept a job anywhere without lots of research. All the research does is suppress my unbridled enthusiasm and slap me in the face with too much reality. After all, travelers who learn too much about their journey tend to not make the journey because of the inherent risks involved in travel.
Having gotten a job offer in a part of the world where I have yearned to work for longer than I can remember, I don't know if I can bring myself to make a decision either way. The job sounds fantastic. I would be teaching preschoolers from Monday to Friday at a school that looks like a great place to work. I just won't get any money. And one of the reasons I want to teach english is to be able to see the world, which involves travel. Which takes money. Plus, I found out that there are a lot of blackouts, which affects the distribution of running water to homes on the island where I want to go. This sort of disables a person from, oh I don't know, cooking, bathing, etc. I have to expect that in a third world country I won't have everything I am accustomed to, but this also isn't supposed to be like working in the Peace Corps where I don't expect many, if any, creature comforts. I guess I could always look for another job abroad, but what if one doesn't come along as right for me as this one?
My other option of course is getting another job that makes me feel completely useless and under-utilized until I go back to school to take some more courses to open my way to different opportunities in graduate school.
Option three would be to hope that I could find an internship that might be able to help me find out what I would like to do for a future career, while also paying me to work for them. Free labor doesn't sit right with me.
Making decisions is stressful. I really don't understand how people do it with seeming ease. Any help, including information, would be beneficial and appreciated.
